all I wanted

all I asked of you

was just, a moment of your attention

to take your face out of your phone

and look at me

to help me cook

or clean

every once and a while

to tell me you appreciated me

that you would go to the end of the earth for me

all I wanted

was for you to lavishly spend money on me on our anniversary because you felt I deserved it

that you wanted to show me how special I was to you

all I wanted was for you to show me the ring

that I would so delicately put on my finger, and you wanted me to be yours

forever

however, life is not always that kind to us

and men do not always live up to our expectations

so I will face my attention to someone who will return it.

waves

The world comes in waves

grasping, breathing, soothing

perilous waves crash over rocks, creating havoc in their presence

treacherous winds rip over the lands, causing fear and terror

water sinks you deep, pours over, crashes down

only to allow to resurface

to let you breath, to quench your thirst, to make you weightless

to sprinkle dew onto your dry, cool skin

to give life to the world

within water lies reason

alexithymia

i cannot always describe my emotions

they take the shape of an alternate universe

sometimes calm, sometimes cold,

sometimes soothing

sometimes terrifying

the secrets of the mind are not always meant to be understood

or cherished

or forgotten

they simply are there. to appreciate, to contemplate, but not to touch

we must observe… but we musnt touch.

you are a rose

you are a rose, in a field of weeds.

you are a sunflower, on top of an arctic mountain

you are a goldfish, swimming in the ocean

you are a dreamer, among the solomn

you are the sad, hiding within the happy ones

you are a rabbit, hopping with the frogs

you are a fir tree, standing tall in the middle of the ocean

you are a free soul, trapped within the cages of your existence

you dont always belong.

i

you there

you. it is sonder to look at you

to not know what lies beneath the surface of those dark hazel eyes

to not know what they have seen

what they feel

where they have been

it is a chaotic battlefield to dive into the mind of those you wish to understand

unknowing, unable to escape

but; somehow comfortable

because they have been waiting for someone like you.

blatherskite

blatherskite –
a person who talks at great length without making much sense

i meet you for coffee on a tuesday morning

you say you havent seen me in forever, are curious of how life is treating me

i watch your lips move, the curl of your smile that i once felt on my neck

your eyes, gazing into my soul, awakening parts that had since fallen asleep

you say words, words into sentences, that are meaningless to me

those thoughts inside your mind that i once cherished are words burned on parchment thrown into a fire

i do not see you anymore

i hug you as you leave, leaving you with the hope you will see me again

you will not.